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[03 Sep 2008|11:03pm] |
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I'm not as brave or as old as i thought.
I miss my mom and I'm starting to miss my morals.I met someone, though, who seems like he can help me regain the latter. It's starting to make me feel at home again.
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[04 Jun 2008|08:43pm] |
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Today feels like I just got back from an amazing vacation. You know that feeling...Sunday feeling before a six day work week, times one million. I dont really understand why. A lot of thoughts have been running through my head lately about myself. I have noticed that I am becoming numb to things...ANYTHING that doesnt directly effect me, no sympathy twards family, friends, more than friends.
I have been trying to do everything that I want. I have spent years of my life trying to please other people. I'm doing me lately, and I do love it, but I seem to have become sickeningly in love with myself. Its hard for me to do anything nice or special for any one but myself. I cant tell if thats a bad thing or not. Morally yes, terrible. but it might be exactly what I've been needing.
If it's what i've been needing though, whyy do i have this feeling in the deep pit of my stomache?
PS. I with I could seriously tell my self i was writing this just to write this to help my self get over WHATEVER, but if thats true why am I feeling the pressing need to post this on both my live journal and my Myspace.
Obviously im feeding my ever growing ego, if youd like to help build it up or plow it down, let me hear it BITCHES
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[04 May 2008|10:17pm] |
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ouchhhhhhh 9 days this should be good but it sucks i like you i dont like you i dont know what im going to do with thenext four years of life today should have been better than it was everything should have been/be better i like you...............i dont like you.
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[28 Mar 2008|11:58pm] |
hey high school...
FUCK YOU
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[11 Mar 2008|11:53am] |
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FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
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[20 Feb 2008|09:18pm] |
Dear LJ
I've missed you. Its been a wierd few weeks. I fear im becoming a terrible person.
xoxo__me
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[18 Apr 2007|09:11pm] |
love is a place
& through this place of
love move
(with brightness of peace)
all places
yes is a world
& in this world of
yes live
(skilfully curled)
all worlds
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)
im tattooing part of one of these on my body, thanks
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[17 Apr 2007|04:04pm] |
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( oooooldes )
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[09 Apr 2007|11:15am] |
my mom goes out of town in 4 days, and prom is in 5.
and i have the sickest prom dress ever and you are all so jealous.
thanks
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[14 Feb 2007|10:28pm] |
plus
plus
EQUALSSSSS the best
eva haha
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[15 Aug 2006|03:37pm] |
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so obv summer is over.
im so upset about it, this has been the most amazing summer of my life. i was doing totaly fin remanesing about how fuuun last ngiht was. then it hit me no more outtings when ever you want.
i feel like im going to be missing somethign.
i feel like everything amazing that happened this summer is just going to stop, and that really can't happen. i lovedthis summer. i feel like im about to lose everything, my grip is sliding.
i got a new shirt. IM OBSESSED WITH IT.
lolashley
last night was so much fuunnnnnn
time scares me
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[23 Jul 2006|08:46pm] |
so im bored, i put all these in my photobucket anyways, and im guna do these pictures from the past few days NOW but ill put more from last night when ashley gets home LATER
( coke head. NOT )
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[17 Jul 2006|10:59pm] |
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today was such a good day. it got better after these pictures but i didnt bring my camera into jacks house
( yay )
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[18 Jun 2006|02:52pm] |
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you wish your week was this: ( (awesoooooooome) )
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